Note: This article is part of our archival content and belongs to a previous phase of our publication. Amaranth Magazine is now a dedicated literary magazine.
Deep Emotions
Deep from my past,
Moving forward to the present,
Focusing on what the future holds,
It’s a cold world,
Face and palms sweating,
My body shivering,
Goosebumps coming from the chills,
I’m breathing,
And my heart doesn’t stop pounding,
I’m beat up as I feel the struggle of defeat,
Mental health running through my veins,
Anxiety be kicking in these constant pain,
Sometimes I feel sad,
Sometimes I feel angry,
Sometimes I feel hopeless,
Sometimes I wanna give up,
On things that matter most of me,
Other times,
I don’t want to do anything no more,
I let it slide & not take actions,
I’m behind while being stuck in the middle,
Unsure what to do,
Asking questions myself on the help I need,
Advices by mentoring is I expect to exceed,
Fight these unwanted toxicity,
Controlling my feelings,
To get through a better day,
Just got to pray and say I’m a be “ok“,
Off Day Feelings
As the days goes by,
I feel the pattern through ups & downs,
It’s like looking at the graph,
Showing curve lines,
Seeing the positive by the negative,
What I can state by,
Understand what I can improve to realize,
Defining my accomplishments,
And enjoy these moments,
Continue to move forward,
And not look back at the past,
Time to time,
I have my off days like seasons change,
Plans or not,
I keep it down low,
Having a quiet space,
Some days I want to be silent,
While sleep in my bed,
Don’t feel like talking to anyone,
Either by phone or text,
Walking through the woods,
Sitting near the lakes,
Hearing the sound of the water,
Calms of the wind,
As the leaves be blowing,
Trees still standing,
Beauty of the nature,
Seeing so colorful,
While I get away,
From these background noises,
Peace be upon me,
